Monday, November 05, 2007
i've lost.
i've lost.
and i admit defeat.
everything's way tooo tough.
and i'm quitting.
am i too sensitive? or are u too insensitive? i don't know what i'm hoping for, because everything seems so bleak. i cant believe i fall back in agn when i thought i walked out of it the other time at ecp. i'm leaving things to fate now alr. i dun wan to fight for anything anymore, cos no matter how hard i try, it takes two to make things work. yea, u're right, fate will decide everything. maybe, just maybe what we lack is this thing call fate. i wonder if u still remember anything? and doesnt anything makes u feel anything? this love is way too one-sided. and i'm collapsing. i'm getting out of all these.
we used to be so close. and i miss your everything. but then, we are so faraway now. the closest strangers.. yes, that's it. i've been too silly. too naive. too dumb and stupid. i guess i still am. i cant believe what i did last night when i asked u. i wished you all the best in finding the right one. and you know what, i didnt know if i meant it. and i'm so sorry. but i really believe.. one day, when we both find the next partner, we'll know wh0's the right one. but till then, everything will be too late.
how i wish i could have the strength and courage to do what i wan. i wished we had a chance to sit down and thrash things out. at least i'll feel better, telling u everything i feel. and i'll get to know what's your stand. but everytime i think of seeing you, i feel like running away. like far far away. because i'm afraid i'll fall deeper, die harder. but i think everything's abit too late alr.
and i shld just forget it.
yes, forget everything.
i've lost terribly to you.
and i hope i wont have to blog here anymore.
an end to my emo-ing.
all i beg for now..
is to let this love die beautifully.
i'm sorry.
